Diary From a Female Myeloma Patient

Female – 53 years old

Diagnosed July 2014

 

My thoughts on Myeloma – June 2015

It started with an unexplainable pain in my back that spread to my chest – to my surprise I was Myeloma_Diarydiagnosed with multiple myeloma a short time later.  I don’t have the symptoms I’ve read about and I am thankful for this and any delay in what might come.  So, now I’m in a club I never thought I’d join – the cancer club. I do find comfort n connecting with those in a similar situation and I have learned from each of you.  It’s the simplified meaning of our cancer that is expressed through personal experiences that brings me clarity and peace.  I’ve been stable and we’re holding off on treatment for now.  It’s a look into the future with the promise of new and upcoming treatments so we wait.  As a cancer patient I worry often about every ache and pain. Does it mean my body is failing me…is the cancer traveling somewhere new?  Paranoia is much like cancer…they travel hand in hand tormenting the patient and their families. Lately I’ve been able to free my mind of what the future holds. I long for total freedom from the one thing I hate more than anything….I despise you cancer!  Today I will not think about you! You don’t deserve my thoughts. I challenge anyone reading this to do the same. There will be good days and bad days but any day we have to share our experience is a great day!